Happyhappyhappy!

You know the feeling, when you wake up and realise that life is frickin’ awesome? Yeah, that’s my feeling today!

I got up surprisingly early for me on a Saturday after snoozing for about three hours – awesome.
Then when I walked into the livingroom the sun was shining and the room was nice and warm!
I really don’t wanna leave this flat, ‘cos I really love it here.. Have been here since Tuesday and I don’t wanna go home! But I guess I have to eventually… Though my sister haven’t been home for a good while and she doesn’t seem to plan to come back here anytime soon, so it wouldn’t really matter if I kept babysitting her flat.

Oh well… I just need to grab my belongings, do the dishes and clean up a bit around me before I head home.
Then I’ll head over to aunt K, uncle P and SveinK as he’s home this weekend

Hope you all have an awesome weekend! I know I will
xx

I may be selfish..

The teenie inside of me is about to boil over…

I just really wish that people could stand by me and support my decision about my future.
During this month I will have to fill out my application for high shcool and in less than six months it’s all over. During July I am moving out. Out of this house, away from certain annoying, bitchy people who likes to make my life more crappy than it already is and not to mention away from this town.
To be honest, I can’t really explain how much I look forward to the summer.. I want a new town, new home, new people in my life and a completely new life. Well, not as much a new life.. See it as a new chapter in my life.

Right now, every week until Easter is filled with essays, tests, projects, lectures and “rehearsal-exams”. I’m stressed as it is, because I’m starting to feel the pressure a bit and I only turn 16 in four months, so take it easy on me.
I know that life is anything but easy, believe me I do. I’ve had more accidents and mistakes than any normal teenager should have. And so far this “exciting, new year” have been nothing but a bitch to me. When I think about what’s happened so far this year, it doesn’t exactly make me happy. And we have only just started February….

Not only is it enough that I have to bury my head revising and being confused as hell when it comes to my future – but my own frickin’ family doesn’t support me. Well, there is one person and that is my aunt.
Not a single one of the people I like to call my friends supports me on my decision and my closest family is really trying to convince me that staying home, going to the local high school and studying something I really don’t want to is the right thing to do. Everyone expects me to end up my like my big sister – move out of town and drop out of school only months after and come back without an education, try to go back to school for then to give up a few weeks afterwards.
I can live with the fact that people think we’re quite alike, but this is my own life and I really want to study – and that’s the total opposite of what my sister wanted.

Not only does my family and friends disapprove my deicision (about my future which will only affect myself and no one else), but the creature that calls herself a school counselor almost yells at me when I tell her what I wanna do with my life.
And every time we have the same fight. I explain to her that I don’t want to study this and that and she flips out and I swear she would’ve thrown a fridge at me if she wanted to.

Am I being extremely selfish when I don’t want to follow anyone else’s dream? The people that had the chance, but didn’t go through with it?
I’m sorry they didn’t get the opportunity or have the guts to go through with it, but it’s not my fault and I am not going to re-live their dreams and stay unhappy for the rest of my life. I’ve done that enough already!

I’m rather stressed and I am really tired of having the same fight with the people I love over and over again..
I understand that they don’t want the youngest person in the family hours away from them and I know that they only wants what’s best for me and I love them for taking care of me and all that.. But it’s about time I get around to take care of myself and yet they act like I have no idea how it is to be living alone.. I guess they’ve completely forgotten that I’ve practically spent this last year being alone then?

I don’t need them to tell me how bitchy life can be and I don’t need them to tell me that they love my decision when it comes to my future. But it would really help me if they just supported me and told me to go for it and chase what I want.

Gawd, sometimes I just wanna rip their head off. Not literally of course, but I do think it would be helpful to shake their head a bit – just to see if I could knock some of my words into it!

Life sucks

I hate to sound like a little kid who doesn’t get what it wants, but… Life is unfair.

Two very good friends of mine lost their father today in a work-accident.
It sucks. It really does!
Because that man was a good, nice, healthy, hardworking, caring man who loved his family very much! It’s just not fair that he had to ripped away from his wife and his two amazing kids.

It’s in these kind of situations you feel helpless. Useless. You feel like you’re in their way.
When someone have to go through situations like these, all problems in your own life seems to fade away. Like they don’t matter. And right now, I give a right damn about my life. My so called problems can’t even be called a problem – not compared to what these people have to go through!

I really wish there was something I could do… Something that could help them through this.
But everything I can do is just to be there. I can’t force them on me, of course I can’t. There are different ways to deal with grief. All I can do is to let them know that the offer stands forever if they want to talk. Or if they just want to do something else, to take their mind off it for a few seconds.

I guess it’s right what they say then… God takes the good angels first!

Rest in piece, Trond.
My heart goes out to your amazing wife Anita, your amazing children, Thea and Magnus and the rest of your family and friends.

No wonder why I’m so happy!

Considering the circumstances I am very happy.
I dunno whether the painkillers or/and the massive amount of sleep I’m getting has something to do with it, but I am pretty sure that I know that I’ve got the best friends and family members in the whole wide world!

I’ve been receiving “Get well soon”-texts, e-mails, phonecalls and all that stuff pretty much all the time since everyone found out about my little stunt on Monday, hehe.
Luckily the painkillers are doing their job and the headache is a bit better!

Usually, me and my classmates don’t really communicate over all this social network-sites, though we’re friends with each other and all that, outside of school. But these past few days they’ve all been very eager to find out how I’ve been doing.
Makes me smile to see how much closer we’ve all gotten during this past semester!
It’s just such a shame that it happens on the final year… :/

One of the sweetest messages I got was from one of the boys, my bestie according to himself haha. He said that if I needed something to use as a pillow or a duvet again he would be happy to come over and lend me his jacket once again!

Another message that made me smile, was from my beloved Lauren!

You OBVIOUSLY take it easy! Dont even think about it or i will come to your place and strap you back into the relaxation mode >_>

get better soon <3 x

She always make me laugh! See, this is why Twitter and MF is so good. I’ve gotten to know many people through that! Mostly McFly-fans, but I don’t mind getting to know people with the same taste as me
Especially since I’m the only one in my town who likes them..

So my day is a better now. I love every person that’s in my life right now! They all make me a very happy girl!

And now it’s time for me to get some more sleep.. (Since I sleep about, uuh.. 15 hours all together a day now..)
I’m tired of being tired, so I hope it all goes away very quickly!

Nighty night x

So eventful

Oh, my week started off really well if I may say so myself.

It was my first proper day back in school in almost two weeks and what do I do..? Yes, I end up in the emergency room.

The entire school went ice skating, and well, me who doesn’t really know how to do that felt pretty stupid out there. But once again my lovely Oda saves the day and teach me how to move forward without looking like Bambi!
And after first holding on to two people, went down to one, then changed to clinging on to a chair and then finally standing and ice skating on my own – well proud of myself – one of my classmates accidentally bumps into me and I lose my balance, going around in circles a couple of times for some strange reason – in a desperate hope to catch my balance and BAM! I went flying (*cough* crashing *cough*) like a sea gull (according to Camilla) into the ice with my head first, causing me to pass out.

When I finally came aound again I had two fucked up knees, one fucked up arm, a swollen lip, a swollen and very blue eye/eyebrow, a somewhat smashed brace and a concussion.

The concussion isn’t that bad.. I only had trouble standing up the first hour or so after my little stage dive.
Though my head is about to explode any minute and I really shouldn’t have my eyes on a screen like this. But the danger of headexplotion is slowly going away, so…

And tomorrow I’m going to sit half dead in a car for over two hours into Trondheim to cause myself even more pain, when they have to change the entire crap they like to call braces.

Ooooh, this is such an exciting Monday and such a wonderful start on this lovely week.. -.-’

Up and at’em!

I surprised myself when I woke up at 8.30 this morning…
And I choose to take it as a sign that I got my sleep when I slept for 15 hours yesterday.

It’s a cold, but nice Sunday here in little Stoksund…
Since the rest of the house is also up, I’m gonna go upstairs and make myself a nice breakfast and then bring my camera along with me as I’m going outside for a walk!

Lately it has been ridiculousy cold here, but today it’s not that bad really. But if you wrap yourself in many layers of clothes, you should be good to go!

I have also realised that I suck at this whole blogging-thing. Especially on here. I’ve started to go back to blogg.no instead now. The reason why, I still don’t know myself – especially since they always have trouble with their site.
Hmpf…

Anyway, hope you lot enjoy your Sunday before a new week comes along!

And now it’s all over…

Christmas came just as fast as it disappeared!

Now it’s a whole year til next time… But if next year flies by just as fast (or even faster) as this year, I’ll have to plan next years Christmaspressies about right now.

My Christmas has been perfect, as every other year. Only it gets more perfect each year. Get it?
Anyway, I’ve had lots of fun spending time with family and friends!

Tonight we’re invited to aunt and uncle’s place for dinner, so I’m going to relax tonight. Think my head needs a bit relaxing, considering these past two nights with too much drink, too loud music and too much dancing.
But it was very fun!

I’ve got the entire season 1 of CSI:NY now so I think I’m gonna watch a few episodes before I drag myself out of bed and hit the shower and eat some breakfast.
I hate to admit that it’s nearly 5 pm and all I’ve had today is a orange juice.

Anyways, hope you all enjoy what’s left of this year!
xx

Now, this is where it all starts

Today was our final day at school before Christmas. Was very fun and it was really nice to just spend the whole day with my classmates without doing anything. Just hanging out, playing music, dancing and having fun!
We all exchanged gifts and were very excited about Christmas

It was also a bit sad, cos it was our very last Christmas closing.
But then we all got cheered up by the fact that on this time next year we’ve all started in a new place, met new people and experienced a lot of fun things!
We just have to stay positive

And right now I have the entire place for myself the whole weekend. Just had some chicken fajitas and am now watching the X-Faktor final! Crossing my fingers for Chand!

I’ve also bought G-Force the other day, so I’ll probably watch it tonight I think..

Other than that I’ve got nothing to do really. May take a walk to Svein Kåre tomorrow, we’ll see
Oh, and it’s also lots of snow here now!! It’s been snowing all day! Hoping that it’ll snow some more tonight and that it will stick this time so that we can take the snowscooter out of the garage.

Oh yeah, now we’re talking Christmasspirit!  

Aah, the memories…

Today I have a day off. Well, not really, but I’m not well enough to go to school. Feels like my head is gonna blow up any minute and unfortunately I can’t blame on “too much widsom” either. Mainly because everyone knows there is no wisdom there.
But it was wisdom enough for me to get grades on my mock exams and previous essays that made me very happy! Think I love my english mock exam the best…. Only because my teacher wrote a big blue 5+ on it.
The happiness didn’t last long though.. Only till I woke up this morning feeling like a monster moved into my body.

Anyway, my bigsister is home for a few days and she really wanted me to help her out today – on what she calls her bakingday.
Can’t say I’m such a help though, don’t really feel for baking, but she talks and bakes away in a very happy mood obviously very glad that I have the strength to sit up and down on a chair to watch.
Brings back good old memories this does… And now I can reaaaally feel the Christmasspirit in me rising!
The smell of chess squares, cokecookies and delfiacakes make me happy! And of course there needs to be a bottle of julebrus next to us.. It’s like the Christmasrule in our house hehe.

Now there’s cookies to be eaten, julebrus to drink and Home Alone movies to watch! My sister is awesome.
I just hope my eyes aren’t gonna pop out while watching the movie.

That’s what the other people are for!

It’s amazing how much joy a small comment about something you’ve done, written or made all by yourself can bring.
Always puts a smile on my face!

Or a total irrelevant conversation over MSN which started with something with Maslow’s somethingsomething and ended with flying baby-walkers. Oh, these people knows exactly what to say or do to cheer you up, don’t they?

It was a crappy start on December for me, since I’ve been in pretty much in bed all time after I took the swineflu-vaccine. And if I knew that it would cause so much pain, then I wouldn’t even consider taking it.
But what’s done is done, unfortunately. The headache is almost gone now, so I’ll be back to my desk tomorrow.
I’m a bit nervous about getting all my mock-exams back though, since it’s just about a few weeks ago that I realized that these are the grades that I’m applying on..

Oh well, time will show. I can’t change the grades that I’ve already got on those mock exam anyway.
So it’s about time that I sit down and enjoy the advent!
I’ve got E.C Dahls Julebrus (which is the best one!!!) and Christmasmarzipan (eller julemarsipan om du vil) and the movie Elf infront of me. Yup, should be a good Sunday

*nomnomnom*