They give the best cuddles..

But today I’m a lot better! The fever is gone and I can actually dare to eat now, so I’m getting there.. Slowly, but for sure!

Still dreading whether I should go to Stokkøya tomorrow night, on the annual Easter party. I really want to go, because I get to see many cousins and a bunch of other friends that I only get to see a few times a year. But then again, going out to party might not be the best idea right now.

Am also spending some of my Easter holiday in Trondheim this year as well. Going in with my grandma and my auntie on Friday, well as long as I don’t get worse of course..
And hopefully we’re all (meaning me, my nan and all the aunts, uncles and cousins on that side) going bowling some time during my stay as well

I’m not a perfect blogger on here.. I’ve gone over to blogg.no – again, so I tend to forget about this one.. Not that there’s anyone actually reading this anyway

BUT, if there is anyone who reads this particular post, then I just want to wish you a Happy Easter! And I hope all of you will have a wonderful week with lots of happiness and candy, hehe! xx

Once my teacher actually asked me if I felt good.. Then I’d been sitting staring at the curtains for about 20 minutes, doing nothing but to smile and play with my pen.

I don’t know exactly why I’m blogging this. I just felt like it…
I would very much like to understand why I’m so happy. And why it all haven’t backfired on me yet..
Oh well! If I’m happy, then I can’t complain!

Now let’s see.. What have been going on since the last time..?
Oh, yes! I’ve dyed my hair – black and pink of all things. Am going to put a bit more colour into it later on. My hair and wallet just needs a rest right now.
I’ve been spending a lot of time in Trondheim lately, for no reason in particular actually. Well, me and Oda visited Byåsen VGS on Thursday and Friday this week, but I’ll get to that later.
My school-application have finally been sent. It was actually in the last minute that I got around to apply in the first place – because the mail had lost my letter with the passwords and the ID-people didn’t send me a new one until a few days before the deadline expired.
And after two hours of fighting with the lunatic – oh, I meant counselor – I finally got to apply.
Now it’s just the everlasting waiting to find out what school I’ve been accepted to!

I’ve applied to media and communication – directly translated – and me and Oda went there this week to see what they were doing and all that stuff. This of course happened after we had applied, but we had two choices – week 9 or week 18. And in week 18 we’re in the middle of the exam-chaos so we figured it was best to do it now! And boy I don’t regret it!

We’ve had so much fun being there and I really like the school.. And you get much more freedom and you get to study the things that you’re interested in – of course you have these general subjects as well, but when you have several hours of media it doesn’t really matter.

But on Friday some of the teacher’s didn’t know we were there so they didn’t really have anything planned for us – as the class had a mathtest and analysis of poems and all that.. So basically we were meant to sit in the cafeteria doing nothing the first two hours, but then this guy came over to us and wondered if we wanted to see the studio.
So ha gave us a camera each and showed us into the studio, told us how to use the equipment and all that and then we were on our own for several hours!
We had sooo much fun! And this is a little bit of our photoshoot.

I love playing guitar, so when I found a guitar in the studio it made me very happy

Oda trying on my glasses and putting on a "teachers-look"

I don't like this picture, because I don't look like me at all.. But we used the windmachine on it, and it was quite fancy!

My little blondie - who is soon to be green and blueish!

Hmm.. What else? Oh yes, I’ve found a place to live in Trondheim. Well, I haven’t seen the place yet, but I’ve seen pictures and I already know lots about it and the houseowners are the coolest persons EVER!
As my aunt said, if you came home on a Saturday night and wanted a nachspiel, it didn’t matter because there was most likely one on the floor above anyway, haha.

Now I have to back to my everlasting packing.. I tend to take stuff out of my bag and then throw it back in not caring where it all ends up – until the moment I have to pack it all properly of course. Then I curse at myself like there was no tomorrow

Only a few weeks after my iceskating stunt that ended in the emergency room, I stilll haven’t learned…
Earlier tonight I fell asleep for about three hours. I thought that an innocent, casual afternoon nap would make me feel refreshed and so on – but I was wrong.
My neck feels so weird… And it feels like I have a hangover – that creepy, heavy head and eyelids.

So.. I thought that if I went for a walk, I would wake up a bit more. Besides, considering all the sweets I’ve been eating it won’t kill me.
Well, that’s what I thought.
It was (and still is) pitch dark, so I didn’t see where I was going. And just before I reached our mailbox, it was like someone dragged my feet away from me and I fell flat on my ass!!
I just have to see the positive in all of this… I didn’t end up with a concussion this time. But my ankle on the other hand…
So I am now sitting with a bag of frozen vegetables wrapped in a towel on my ankle. It’s still a bit swollen, but it’s going the right way.
I’ll have to have it a bit up in the air tonight and take it a bit easy in the gym tomorrow.

So yeah… Now I’m locking myself inside the house until the snow and ice goes away.

I got up surprisingly early for me on a Saturday after snoozing for about three hours – awesome.
Then when I walked into the livingroom the sun was shining and the room was nice and warm!
I really don’t wanna leave this flat, ‘cos I really love it here.. Have been here since Tuesday and I don’t wanna go home! But I guess I have to eventually… Though my sister haven’t been home for a good while and she doesn’t seem to plan to come back here anytime soon, so it wouldn’t really matter if I kept babysitting her flat.

Oh well… I just need to grab my belongings, do the dishes and clean up a bit around me before I head home.
Then I’ll head over to aunt K, uncle P and SveinK as he’s home this weekend

Hope you all have an awesome weekend! I know I will
xx

I just really wish that people could stand by me and support my decision about my future.
During this month I will have to fill out my application for high shcool and in less than six months it’s all over. During July I am moving out. Out of this house, away from certain annoying, bitchy people who likes to make my life more crappy than it already is and not to mention away from this town.
To be honest, I can’t really explain how much I look forward to the summer.. I want a new town, new home, new people in my life and a completely new life. Well, not as much a new life.. See it as a new chapter in my life.

Right now, every week until Easter is filled with essays, tests, projects, lectures and “rehearsal-exams”. I’m stressed as it is, because I’m starting to feel the pressure a bit and I only turn 16 in four months, so take it easy on me.
I know that life is anything but easy, believe me I do. I’ve had more accidents and mistakes than any normal teenager should have. And so far this “exciting, new year” have been nothing but a bitch to me. When I think about what’s happened so far this year, it doesn’t exactly make me happy. And we have only just started February….

Not only is it enough that I have to bury my head revising and being confused as hell when it comes to my future – but my own frickin’ family doesn’t support me. Well, there is one person and that is my aunt.
Not a single one of the people I like to call my friends supports me on my decision and my closest family is really trying to convince me that staying home, going to the local high school and studying something I really don’t want to is the right thing to do. Everyone expects me to end up my like my big sister – move out of town and drop out of school only months after and come back without an education, try to go back to school for then to give up a few weeks afterwards.
I can live with the fact that people think we’re quite alike, but this is my own life and I really want to study – and that’s the total opposite of what my sister wanted.

Not only does my family and friends disapprove my deicision (about my future which will only affect myself and no one else), but the creature that calls herself a school counselor almost yells at me when I tell her what I wanna do with my life.
And every time we have the same fight. I explain to her that I don’t want to study this and that and she flips out and I swear she would’ve thrown a fridge at me if she wanted to.

Am I being extremely selfish when I don’t want to follow anyone else’s dream? The people that had the chance, but didn’t go through with it?
I’m sorry they didn’t get the opportunity or have the guts to go through with it, but it’s not my fault and I am not going to re-live their dreams and stay unhappy for the rest of my life. I’ve done that enough already!

I’m rather stressed and I am really tired of having the same fight with the people I love over and over again..
I understand that they don’t want the youngest person in the family hours away from them and I know that they only wants what’s best for me and I love them for taking care of me and all that.. But it’s about time I get around to take care of myself and yet they act like I have no idea how it is to be living alone.. I guess they’ve completely forgotten that I’ve practically spent this last year being alone then?

I don’t need them to tell me how bitchy life can be and I don’t need them to tell me that they love my decision when it comes to my future. But it would really help me if they just supported me and told me to go for it and chase what I want.

Gawd, sometimes I just wanna rip their head off. Not literally of course, but I do think it would be helpful to shake their head a bit – just to see if I could knock some of my words into it!

Two very good friends of mine lost their father today in a work-accident.
It sucks. It really does!
Because that man was a good, nice, healthy, hardworking, caring man who loved his family very much! It’s just not fair that he had to ripped away from his wife and his two amazing kids.

It’s in these kind of situations you feel helpless. Useless. You feel like you’re in their way.
When someone have to go through situations like these, all problems in your own life seems to fade away. Like they don’t matter. And right now, I give a right damn about my life. My so called problems can’t even be called a problem – not compared to what these people have to go through!

I really wish there was something I could do… Something that could help them through this.
But everything I can do is just to be there. I can’t force them on me, of course I can’t. There are different ways to deal with grief. All I can do is to let them know that the offer stands forever if they want to talk. Or if they just want to do something else, to take their mind off it for a few seconds.

I guess it’s right what they say then… God takes the good angels first!

Rest in piece, Trond.
My heart goes out to your amazing wife Anita, your amazing children, Thea and Magnus and the rest of your family and friends.

I’ve been receiving “Get well soon”-texts, e-mails, phonecalls and all that stuff pretty much all the time since everyone found out about my little stunt on Monday, hehe.
Luckily the painkillers are doing their job and the headache is a bit better!

Usually, me and my classmates don’t really communicate over all this social network-sites, though we’re friends with each other and all that, outside of school. But these past few days they’ve all been very eager to find out how I’ve been doing.
Makes me smile to see how much closer we’ve all gotten during this past semester!
It’s just such a shame that it happens on the final year… :/

One of the sweetest messages I got was from one of the boys, my bestie according to himself haha. He said that if I needed something to use as a pillow or a duvet again he would be happy to come over and lend me his jacket once again!

Another message that made me smile, was from my beloved Lauren!

You OBVIOUSLY take it easy! Dont even think about it or i will come to your place and strap you back into the relaxation mode >_>

get better soon <3 x

She always make me laugh! See, this is why Twitter and MF is so good. I’ve gotten to know many people through that! Mostly McFly-fans, but I don’t mind getting to know people with the same taste as me
Especially since I’m the only one in my town who likes them..

So my day is a better now. I love every person that’s in my life right now! They all make me a very happy girl!

And now it’s time for me to get some more sleep.. (Since I sleep about, uuh.. 15 hours all together a day now..)
I’m tired of being tired, so I hope it all goes away very quickly!

Nighty night x

It was my first proper day back in school in almost two weeks and what do I do..? Yes, I end up in the emergency room.

The entire school went ice skating, and well, me who doesn’t really know how to do that felt pretty stupid out there. But once again my lovely Oda saves the day and teach me how to move forward without looking like Bambi!
And after first holding on to two people, went down to one, then changed to clinging on to a chair and then finally standing and ice skating on my own – well proud of myself – one of my classmates accidentally bumps into me and I lose my balance, going around in circles a couple of times for some strange reason – in a desperate hope to catch my balance and BAM! I went flying (*cough* crashing *cough*) like a sea gull (according to Camilla) into the ice with my head first, causing me to pass out.

When I finally came aound again I had two fucked up knees, one fucked up arm, a swollen lip, a swollen and very blue eye/eyebrow, a somewhat smashed brace and a concussion.

The concussion isn’t that bad.. I only had trouble standing up the first hour or so after my little stage dive.
Though my head is about to explode any minute and I really shouldn’t have my eyes on a screen like this. But the danger of headexplotion is slowly going away, so…

And tomorrow I’m going to sit half dead in a car for over two hours into Trondheim to cause myself even more pain, when they have to change the entire crap they like to call braces.

Ooooh, this is such an exciting Monday and such a wonderful start on this lovely week.. -.-’